Blooming Heck!! What a man huh! That is me. I am suitably embarrassed by all photos of me whilst at my biggest and as such because of the digital age pictures are hard to come by.
I used to go through all photos and delete any that had me in unless I could crop out anything other than my head. This has resulted in very few family pictures. I never thought much of it at the time but in many years to come when I am long gone and the kids want to go through the photos, what legacy does that leave?
In The Beginning….
As this is going to be a cathartic experience for me I will be delving into my life going right back and working up to the present day.
As a young lad I ate whatever the hell I liked. In fact I was always called “human dustbin” due to my habit of clearing everyone’s leftovers as well as completely clearing my own plate. From the age of 13 to 23 my weight and waist measurement stayed the same.
BOOOOM – WTF! 23 years old and as sudden as anything I had a pot belly that just grew and grew. I kidded myself, brought bigger clothes to hide it, always big T-Shirts and Shirts always un-tucked and hanging down. With all my tricks that fooled no one but me it still caused a deep intake of breath and a black mood every time I caught a glimpse of myself in a shop window or mirror. Time to Act!!!!!
Over the next 15 years I embarked on a vicious cycle that looking back could have probably been used to set the atomic clock.8 months of eating to excess, drinking to excess and laziness. 1 month contemplation “Hmmm maybe I should lose weight” 10 weeks on “Diet” Slimming World, Weightwatchers, Atkins etc (Never stopped Alcohol during these times) Lose 1 to 2 Stone – Feel Happy – One Cheat Meals OK to celebrate how well I have done!! 8 months of eating to excess, drinking to excess and laziness. (All weight lost put back on plus some) 1 month contemplation “Hmmm maybe I should lose weight” etc etc etc
You know, each of these diets I did, they worked, I lost weight dramatically! I was happy but my willpower was finite..
10 days!!! seriously I could follow any plan with good weight loss for just 10 days. I would beam and smile when getting an award for most weight loss in a week but then after 10 days I would sneak in a treat… please also bear in mind that at no time did I stop drinking or count the alcoholic calories. My mindset was “I’m Losing weight whilst drinking 2 bottles of scotch a week so when weight loss slows I will concentrate on the drink”
Sorry for the language but Jeez what sort of complete dickhead was I??? more of this later!!
After cheating, I would miss a meeting and “Catch Up By Next Week!” which I would but then cheat again and miss maybe 2 meetings. around 10 weeks would go past before I stopped going altogether because “I Got This!” – Again I kidded myself that I could carry on without the meeting as I have lost a couple of stone, when in reality I didn’t “Have It” whilst attending the meetings.
Alas I would quickly pile on the lost weight plus add another stone or so for good measure before it even crossed my mind to lose weight again – at which time I would spend another 4 weeks or so in contemplation whilst making absolutely zero lifestyle changes..
Hmmm contemplation of losing weight loss whilst tucking into a kebab designed for 3 people to share (£13) a litre of coke and a Jam Roly-Poly, Ice Cream AND custard for dessert!! I kid you not!
Next : What 15 years of yoyo dieting did to me.